today i chanced upon my sec one blog, and i saw so many unpleasant things in the tag where ppl commented on my attitude. I never knew. well, i AM quite hurt now. But i wanna say that i've changed alot and i'm not wad i used to be. AND I'M NOT A FLIRT. No way. it may seems to you guys-whoever out there- that i am. But ppl who truly know me will know that i'm not a flirt. And i know ppl say that i'm lian. they still do now. But enough of this bitching, people DO change. And i'm not now. And if you think i am. Den that's okay. I dun mind, i cant do anything about it. i jus wanna say sorry to whoever out there who though of me as a fucking bitch. i've had enough of bitching and gotten used to it
Today we had a super long assemble, but throughout the whole time we were discussing about our own presentation. I didnt mind retaking the video, if i'm not in it(cos it's so awful). So now i have to put subtitles in the video, which na says it's difficult. but i dunno la. Den now, na not so happy cos i refuse to be in the new video.OOPS. Den now i dunno wad to do. but it doesn't really matter. No idea what's wrong with me nowadays, i flare up at almost everyone. i seriously apologize.
I jus realise that i'm such a money face nowadays. All thanks to kai's doings, influence me. so sttress over my F&N. at least i got my main dish,
ALMOND BUTTER CHICKEN IN ORANGE SAUCE. Sounds nice rite! Tmr is my dad's birthday, and i didnt get him anything at all.. But i know he will say, 'u dun have to get me anything, as long as i know you have the heart to get me something. Dun waste money.'
Oh, and today, my mom saw me and kai. we were walking, then she was behind me. At least she didnt scold me or say anything. which i grateful for. Last time was so much harsher and worse. I was always in fear of finding out. Then whenever my left eyelid twitch, i feel so scared. There was once i was so stress i wanted to break up with kai. Which i eventually didnt. There was so many things i wanted to tell my family about, but i didnt get a chance to cos i was afraid and we were also quarreling constantly. But now, i feel so much better. In fact, i sometimes think of my mom as my friend den as a mother. yupp. XD
Thursday, August 17, 2006
today i got back my bio paper. WHICH I FAILED BY ONE MARK..so disappointing. I studied this paper since friday la. Bring the text book everywhere i go.. even to my granddad's house.. music blah blah blah. den i failed. First time so sad. Den chris topped the class, den i also dunno why. i got SUPER DAMN PISSED with her. Which now, when i come to think of it, it seems like a petty and childish act. And i apologized to her eventually. But i still dun understand why i was so mad at her. And i seldom get so mad at people too. jus feel damn bad. n i still bitch abt her to all my other friends during recess. Which kinda suck cos she and i used to be besties. And she helped me alot.
nowadays so stressful, need to find a suitable recipe which has all the vitamins and iron, calcium and all.. hard. Today i got another project, some video taking competition. so many stuff to fill in. i'm doing advertisment which cannot be longer den 1 min. hmm.. wad should i advertise..
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
OH YA..i jus remembered.. alyssa today said i looked like a squirrel +cat+rabbit. which is quite unimaginable to me la. But at least it's better that looking lyk a caterpillar or an iguna or pikachu rite. AND i jus realised that i dont have my sitting partner:samamtha's fone number. Which is quite bad cos we were friends for quite long. and now's the 9pm show. gonna watch!
ahhh!!! stupid com.. doing my english argumentative..den stupid mouse got problem lah.. aiyo... lagging com.. zzz... wah...stress sia.. F&N de coursework... need to get it done by next week... analysis of ingredients, recipe modification,time plan.. still got alot.. wad to do sia.. and i feel so bad for samamtha.. it's not even her fault.. den now she gets the blame.. i was the one who was talking to alicia for bio test la.. if she fails the test den i will feel even worse.And nowadays, i realise i've becoming more money faced. Maybe it's beacuse of kai's influence...SEE LAH! Never mind, money face is good. Next time i can be even richer.
hello.. anyway..now is fnn lesson..and mrs gurong says we still have 5 more minutes left to reserch on the recepies..but guess wad time is it now? 4.22pm, which is 20minutes later already lah. and everytime she leaves the classroom.. she says she will be back in 2 mins time which always end up around half an hour.. anyway.. i'm suspecting that she has gone off to eat orange bowl la...haha...