a spastic photo of my clique. hahahahaha! everyone look lyk retard. and i think na doesn't know how to take pictures with my phone. i shall show u why.




THE st nicholas view. the one true beauty.

aww.. i think these kids are so cute. they seem to enjoy having 4 hands holding on to that fish.

here's a picture of na and tilda taking a picture during bio lesson.

speaking of comics, i finish reading it already!!! and i've decided to buy the complete set which will cost me $28. hahahaha. but it's worth it.

i'm starting to worry for O levels cos i realised i totally forgot trigonometry. i dunno how i will cope. there's lyk so little time left. i guess i gotta make sacrifices. at least now me and ** is not talking anymore. i want a clean break. you jus keep playing with my feelings time after time. and i really had enough.

you're not talking to me now, because i told you not to. i'm thankful dat you really stopped, yet a small part of me is wishing that you will at least send me a message. i really want to stop everything so badly. yet i will think of the times we had tgt. all those shit that we went thru before everything was peaceful again. yet at this time, you had to tell me that you cant love me and commit to me. and it all ended like that. where you continued to flirt with me even though you don't want me back. you only said it for the sake of saying. yet you don't know the effects and the kind of pining i have for you. when i said u wanted u back, u jus said that you're sorry that u need more time. but when i was alright, you would say you want me back and you've had enough time. that you truly love me. and put me in such confusion. now i'm so afraid. i loved you and yet u hurt me time after time. everyone is telling me that its not worth it. i know it myself too. but yet what can i do. i'm trying so hard. i really want to let go. i don't have a choice anymore.

and it saddens me to know that no matter how much i loved you in the past or how much i love you now and in the future, we wont bet tgt. because everything is just not right. and you know it too. we're just living in self denial that we can be tgt, that we can try once more. but we know how will it end. i'll be the same as before. filled with hurt, pressure and so much fear.

and i see my friends try so hard to be with the ones they loved. they never gave up, no matter how f-ed up those guys were. that's called love. fall, and stand up again. try. they know that they might not have an ending and might get hurt again but they're willing to try. they don't let go. yet what are we? i don't know if you love me, but i know i do. so am i gonna stand there and watch u leave and not give us a chance anymore? i don't know. though this may seem contridictory to what i've said on top. but i'm really confused. i want to try again. but there's no future. and you're going ns in september. where my Os are near. how will i cope without you then? time is not on our side. it seems impossible to be tgt again. 2 yrs in ns, by then, i have my own new life with new friends. how will we be tgt again? we're just not fated. yet why are we put tgt in the first place, and experience so much hurt when it can all be avoided.

maybe turning back now is not too late. we've only lasted for so long. i can lead my life normally without you.

i belong to me now. and no one else.